THIS WILL “NOT” TAKE YOU OUT!

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For the last 7 ½ years I have work for this particular organization. For the last 3 years, I have wondered why am I still there. If the truth is told about me, I will give an organization 5 years of my time and I am out because the way my mind is set up I get bored with what I do after a while and just want out. I know I was not created to occupy a cubicle daily. I have the gift of gab and love to be out and about helping and serving others. Well, this past week I figured out why I was still at my current job and I also figured out what I would like to be doing later in life as I venture into entrepreneurship.

I have spoken with numerous of individuals in the last week that really pulled at my heart-strings. I am in the medical field and have been for the last 20 + years. This past Thursday, I spoke with a young lady that is battling a situation and felt that she was at her wit’s end. She was in my office seeking assistance with some questions she had regarding her eligibility and she later starting telling me some other things she had going on. I could hear her frustrations and notice she begin to tear up. At that moment, the intercessor and coach in me began to rise up and flow out of me. I had to let her know that she IS NOT and WILL NOT be DEFEATED. The bible states that we will not be consumed by the cares and things that confront us in this world. I had to let her know that what she is going through could be worst. However, I let her know that we would conquer this thing that she is confronted with grace and patience. I began to ask her questions about how she got there, where she lived, and did have food to eat. I asked her was she struggling financially. All her answers were positive. Therefore, I told her that she will get through this as she has everything else in her life.

I am not sure who will read this or what you may be going through at this very moment. But I want you know that whatever it is you’re dealing with WILL NOT take you out. You are a OVERCOMER. Victory is your NAME. The bible says that because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed by the care of the world or by our situations or circumstances, for his compassion NEVER fail (Lamentations 3:22). I want you to know that I am praying with you and for you. Things may seem bad, but know that it WILL GET BETTER.

I feel the need to prayer right now:

Father God, I bless your name tonight as I type this post. I come right now lifting up each and every reader to you. I ask that you bless them right now in every area they stand in the need of a blessing. If it is healing, we ask for healing. For it was by your stripes that we ARE healed. If they need a miracle in their finances, I ask that you have your way and bless like only you can. If a relationship need to be healed or mended, I ask that you fix it right now. I ask that you let Your Will be done right now in their lives here on earth God. I love you and praise you every answered prayer right now in the Name of Jesus. Amen

It is my prayer that you have a BLESSED start to a new Week and 2nd Quarter of this Year!

Love each and every one of you!

LifeasthePKTwanna

Aka: Coach Twanna “The Ignite Coach”

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Who Am I?

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Let’s KEEP IT REAL on this RESURRECTION SUNDAY.

Who am I? I did not know not long ago. Or, maybe I knew and was afraid of what PEOPLE would think if I told them. I was and am continually on that beaten path to REAL self-discovery. I know what I wanted to be or did I really “IF” I didn’t know who I was. Hmmm!!! Have I confused you yet? I can help you discover your strengths and who you are but had issues with telling you who I TRULY am or was. Hmm!!! Oxymoron or incongruous huh?

Well, what is self-discovery you might ask? It can be defined as “becoming aware of one’s true potential, character, motives, etc”, per American English Dictionary. I have been in this journey for quite some time and I am ready to be able to answer that very weighted question and help you answer it as well. I can tell you what I am not. I am not: my hair, my career, my job, my marital status, or my religious affiliation. However, right now I can say I am SCARED, I am FEARFUL, I am LONELY, I am BROKEN in some areas, I sometime feel left out, and I sometime feel less than. But I know that is not who I TRULY am. I am a overcomer, I am a B.A.L.L.E.R (want to know what that is just ask me), I am FREE, because whom the Son sets Free is FREE indeed. I am who I am because He said so and that is all I will ever be. Guess what? I don’t need your approval to be who I am either.

Now, as I continue on this path to self-discovery I ask that you search yourself and discover who you TRULY are…

Don’t JUDGE me because of my TRUTH and TRANSPARENCY!

I’m sharing my HEART and THOUGHTS…

Life as the PK Twanna

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Weight & Wait Issue

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“But they that wait on the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31

For years, I’ve had the two Weight & Wait issue. For as long as I can remember, I have always had a weight issue. I was the chubby child and the fat chick growing up. I have tried every fad diet out there. I have starved myself. I never took the diet pills or had a desire for weight loss surgery. As I stated I have tried every diet there was to try. I tried the Cabbage Soup Diet, 3 Day Diet, South Beach Diet, Mayo Diet, and etc. You I would drink the Apple Cider Vinegar and Lemon Water. I would drink the Cayenne Pepper, Maple Syrup, Lemon Juice, & Water diet. Nothing seemed to work for me. I would pray to stay on one to lose the weight. Again, nothing was working. During the pregnancy with my son I managed to lose 30 pounds. This put me at my lowest weight in years that I could recall. However, the stresses of life and my inability to control my eating and drinking cause me to gain the weight back. Fast forward 5 years later, I am weighing in at 332 and blood pressure uncontrollable. After dealing with a headache for a month, I decided it was time to make a change.

There is no doubt that for me weight loss is and has been a challenging thing for me. So, I prayed and I told God, “God I refuse to live my life feeling the way I am feeling. I and tired of being cute and overweight. I am tired of blood pressure not being controlled. I told God for some reason I’ve had this WEIGHT issues that stems from my not being able to really WAIT on you. Therefore, I will wait on you and I will do things your way.” My day would start out asking God what would you have me to eat and do today. I allowed him to speak to me and tell me what my diet or meal plan would be for that day. He spoke to me and told me it was time for me to go back to the basics. Growing up my father would eat green vegetables daily. He rarely ate junk food. Therefore, I decided it was time to eat what I grew up on and not the quick foods or processed foods. I would cook greens weekly. I developed a liking for vegetables I never tasted or ate such as eggplant, cauliflower, spaghetti squash, zucchini, and asparagus. I created recipes with those vegetables and started to eating them weekly. I stopped eating casseroles, soups,  and fast food (other than Chicken Nuggets and Chipotle Rice bowls). I cut out the sodas and juices. I would only drink Ginger Ale to settle my stomach. Follow God’s Plan and waiting on Him has allowed me to lose 35 pounds in 4 months.

The Bible says that they that wait on the Lord shall renew their strength. Thanks to God because I waited on Him and entrusted Him to help me with these weight/wait issues I am well on my way to meeting my Weight Goals and ANY GOALS I set out to reach in my life. You too can reach your goals. Trust in the Lord and lean NOT to your own understanding. In ALL your ways acknowledge HIM and He will direct your path.

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Now watch me wait and continue to lose this weight.

Coach Twanna J

Just Be You…

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Ephesians 2:10 “For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do GOOD WORKS, which GOD prepared in advance for us to do.”

Have you ever had those days where you think “WHO AM I?”, “What was I placed here to be”?  Well, I had those days quite often. Growing up I often wonder who am I, who would I become in this life, who is that one individual out there that I would like to pattern my life after? Well, I was never really able to answer that question earlier in life. Why you might ask? Because I was always closed mined, never thought I deserved to be SOMEBODY. So I started allowing other people to tell me who I was, what I should become or be. That is when I realized I was living a LIE. I was doing what EVERYONE wanted me to do and NOT living the dream I had for myself as a child/teenager.

I can recall sitting in a class in the 11th grade when career counselors visited to discuss with us different career paths. They introduced themselves and then started around the room asking us to introduce ourselves. Their question was: Tell us your name and what career field you want to be in or what you wanted to be when you graduated from High School and Why? I was so excited about hearing what they had to say about the many different career fields. They started around the room. I heard the famous I want to be a doctor, a lawyer, a teacher, a police man, nurse and it finally got to me and I was too excited share. I stated, my name is Twanna and when I finish school I want to go to college to be a Social Worker or a Counselor. Why you might ask I added, because I just love helping people. I was so enthused about this I was told I lite up when I talked about it. Growing up I always found myself HELPING others. If I had a dollar I broke it down so that all my friends had something. I was always that shoulder to cry on. I was the one that everyone thought had all the answers and to a point I did. Knowledge was definitely power for me because I kept a book in my hand. If I was asked something I didn’t know you can believe I was doing my research to find the answer.

Well fast forward to my senior year. When it was time to make that decision as to what I was going to major in when I went off to college in August I listened to what everybody said but not what Twanna thought. They would say, I think you should go into Nursing because you as so compassionate with people. You are a people person. Plus, do you know how much money a nurse make. So what do I do? I enroll in college and signed up for nursing, throwing away my dream and desire of being a social worker. I enjoyed the ride to that degree, but after working in that area I realized this is not what “I” wanted to be. I found myself spending more time counseling the patients and their family. When they wanted to talk I was the one they called on. I found myself going in on my days off and just sitting talking to them helping them figure out the next step when they was to be released. Then when they were released I would go help out my patients in their homes. I would go talk to them and help them make their next step. What was I doing? I was living my dream outside of my chosen career.

Fast forward to today February 2017, I am still not working on my dream job. I am not the nurse everyone wanted me to be. However, I return to school for my MBA and later became certified as a Life Coach. This was the next great thing for me since I didn’t follow my heart and dreams of becoming a social worker.  Today, I get so much fulfillments in helping others transform and find their passion in life and fulfill their dreams. I get to work with our Veterans to help them cope with things that they are encountering since they have left military. I always wanted to start a Sister Girls group, so in January 4th 2014 I started my first Group (Goal Diggers/Prospectors) where we created our Vision Boards for the year, worked on our V.I.S.I.O.N (Vesting In Something I’ll Own Now & Forever) and G.O.A.L.S (God Ordained Achievements for Life Sustainment) for our many different lives. We held each other accountable to what we say wanted in life. I am in the processing of starting a couple of movements – E.G.O (Everything God Ordered) and Christian B.A.L.L.E.R.  I said all this to say, stay true to who you are, follow “your dream”, live life on purpose with a purpose, and always follow your big E.G.O.

As a transformation coach, it is my mission in life to help people (especially teen and women) to live the dreams you dreamed about growing up, catch a VISION, set GOALS ,  seek out your TRUE PASSION  by finding your SWEET SPOT, and TAKE ACTION. We are the only person holding us back. God didn’t waste any resources. I went through my past to help someone with their FUTURE. Let me help you align you CHOICES with what you LOVE to do. At the end of day, it pays to JUST BE YOU and not the YOU others want you to be.

LifeAsThePKTwanna

Aka: (The Ignite Coach Twanna)

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You Can’t Do it Alone!

Well I have been away for a couple weeks because I was sick and trying to get my life back on track. During my time out it warrant a trip to the Emergency Room. This definitely was not in the plans, but I ended up there. I am living in an area where there is not family within 15-20 miles. I have limited friends or associates in the area as well. That moment when I felt the need to go to the emergency room, I didn’t want to scare my children with calling an ambulance. I begin to call any and everyone I know here in town. No one was available. I wasn’t comfortable with driving myself. Thankfully, a neighbor was home and available to take me. On the trip to the Emergency Room, I started to think about life and how we cannot do this thing called life alone.  “I” can’t do this thing called life on my own. I am use to having people in my corner. I am use to having people available for me at all times. This thing of being alone and not having associates is new for me and my children.

I always tell my daughter, you need to always have that one individual who is there for you and who will have your back. I tell her often that one someone would be someone you can tell your secrets to. They will be someone that will go to war for you. They will know your character and can vouch for you when it seems the world has come up against you. This does not replace your relationship with God because He will ALWAYS be there for you and will lead and direct you. But you NEED that someone that is there for you.

God shows us this in the Book of Exodus 17. Sometimes we try to do life alone and it could be good because it teaches us independence as we grow along. But there comes a time in our lives where we need help. We need or brothers and sisters to come along and hold us up like Aaron and Hur did for Moses in Exodus 17. When Moses got tired they gave him a seat and one on each side of him held his hands up until they overcame the Amalekites. You may not be in a quote/unquote war, but you have your many battles that you’re fighting in life. You could be battling with a sickness. It could be a battle with grief. It could be a spiritual battle. This is the time we need someone to come along and hold us up. We all need a Ruth, Aaron, or Jonathon in our lives. That someone will know our good, bad and ugly. Someone who will not abandon us when outside circumstances change or come against us. They will stay there through the thick and thin. They will point us in the right direction when needed. That direction should be to God.

It is time out for trying to do it alone. Ask God in prayer to send you your Ruth, Aaron, or Jonathon.

Blessings,

Life of a PK Twanna

 

“Letting Go of the Things that’s STRESSING YOU

“Letting Go of the Things that’s STRESSING YOU

Psalm 55-22 “Cast your cares/burdens upon the Lord and He shall sustain you; He shall NEVER suffer the righteous to fall or be moved.” 

Happy Sunday God’s People. It is my prayer that everyone is doing well and prospering.

Question: Have you ever had so much on you mind and heart that it causes you to stress? Well that has been me for the last couple months. Yes, you are correct! This thing stress is not good for the mind or the body.

My past week and night has been very eventful. Therefore, on last night I ended up in the Emergency room with heart palpitations. I was concerned and wanted to make sure there was nothing serious with my heart. All the while I heard God speaking saying, “All will be well, but You’re not seeking me with your WHOLE Heart Twanna.” He said you’re not giving it all to me. I had been praying all week that God would take the burdens and make me better. However, I realized I was not releasing all to Him and allowing Him to take care of them. For so long I have tried to be that STRONG one. I would take on the burdens of everyone and not allowing God the take their burdens. I would try to be “Captain Save a Brother or Sister” all the while neglecting myself.  I would put out this persona that I got it all together, all the while I was crumbling. Well the stress began to manifest in my body. Yep, I am like some of you, I would pray about things and then pick it right back up. However, the scripture today says we are to throw and pile all our troubles on to God’s shoulder. We are supposed to allow Him to carry that load (our load and the load of others). Can you be honest with me that we do not always leave it/them there? The hymn say we are to take our burdens to the Lord and leave them there. But sometime we just feel like we have to help God out with the load or try to figure things out. We often doubt the things that He speaks or has spoken to us.

Well I resolve this day, that I will take my burdens to the Lord and leave them there. I admonish you to do the same if you are dealing with any burdens or stress. The Word tells us, “What shall we then say to these things (burdens or cares)? If God be for us, who can be against us?” – Roman 8:31. It also says, “Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world give, give I unto you.” – John 14:27. We are to let NOT our hearts be troubled or be afraid.

Let us all “GO IN PEACE”. I am praying for you and ask you to be in prayer with me.

 Many Blessing,

Twanna – “The PK”

 

Let Go and Be Free

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Million Dollar Question?

Why is letting go such a hard thing to do? We often feel it is easier to hold on to that thing that is hurting us then to let it go. But I hear God saying He wants us FREE.

As we embark upon the holiday MLK Day, I hear the words Freedom ringing in my ear. While I set in church this morning my prayer was that God would free His people. So, my words for today is LET GO and BE FREE (FREEDOM).

For so long I can honestly say I have not been free and has not let things go. Yes, I have prayed about letting go. However, that “thing” would still rise up in me at times when I didn’t want it too. We often hear the phrase “Let it Go” or “Let Go and Let God”. We often think to ourselves, that is not an easy thing to do. Often time we don’t even know what we need to let go of. I come to realize that it is easy if we want to let it go and really know what and why we are letting go. However, we hold on to those things to use as our weapons against people. We hold on to them because they allow us to appear to be the VICTIM. We hold on to them because for some crazy reason we won’t to hold on to the foolishness. Then there are somethings that we might think is GOOD but need to be released. For example, I was on a job that I absolutely loved the people I worked with, but the job itself was stressful and making me sick. I was making good money, but my health was failing from the stress. I had to let it go. At some point, we must let go in order to be FREE.

The Bible is a perfect place for us to go when we are trying to let go. It tells us in Psalms 55:22, “Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you; He will NEVER let the righteous fall (be shaken).” We need to cast those things that are not good for us away and on to God. This casting will allow us to come FREE. And we know that whom the Son set Free is free indeed (John 8:36). We can become free if we Seek God for His Wisdom. Allow His Spirit to penetrate your soul. For where the Spirit of the Lord is there is FREEDOM. There is LIBERTY.

No LET GO and BE FREE. Let go of your will and allow God’s Will be done in your lives. Last, know that God’s love is greater that any hurt, regret or pain you can ever have.

Be FREE I said, BE FREE!!!!

Blessings,

LifeAsthePKTwanna

 

Lonely, But Not Alone

That moment you really realize that you’re “Lonely, but not Alone”.

I relocated my family to Indiana in September 2015 to be near some family. I moved from Tennessee where I had my adopted family, my coworkers/friends, and my church family. My oldest had her classmates and best friends. We were somewhat content as it related to the friends and the area. However, I was unhappy on my job. There was no advancement in my career. I didn’t have the support I need from management to help me grow. This is when I became sick physically from the stresses of life. So, I decided I would move to be close to some family with hopes of fulfilling that need for connection with family. I had no family in the city I lived in Tennessee and I longed to be near some family. Some may ask why did you move that far from my immediate family. Well to be honest, that’s another blog post. In short truthfully, it was because for years I ran from my family. I won’t go into the reasons why. However, what I will say is I always grew up feeling lonely so I secluded myself by moving around for years.

I have always had friends and I mean LOTS of friends around me because I needed that relationship. Wherever, I moved I would find that people/family that would be my family while I was in that city. We would do holidays with those family which always made it feel like home for us. But they weren’t like being with immediate or blood related family. So, this country girl was LONELY. I put on a happy face to make people think and feel I had it all together. All alone I was crumbling on the inside. Because of that loneliness it leads me to looking for love in ALL the wrong people and places. It was not until this morning (January 8, 2017) that I had to wake up and realize that I have done things my way for so long and now it is time to do things HIS way. I am speaking of my GOOD GOOD Heavenly Father. My prayer for the last few years has been that God would send me Godly Relationship. For the last year, He told me that He had me alone for a reason. I didn’t understand the alone He had me in because It did not feel good. That loneliness, I thought nearly killed me. First, because I would eat when I became stressed and felt like I had no one to talk to. I was not even able to truly pray about how I felt. The eating lead to extra weight which in return lead to another bout of high blood pressure. This sickness has led to a true eye opener for me. Second, because I was not feeding myself spiritually. I was going to church but it was out of routine. I wasn’t reading his word or anything that I would usually do. However, today I have discovered the root of my issue and from this day forth I WILL (with the help of God and my sharing my testimony through blogs) move past this into God pure WHOLENESS and HOLINESS.

My scripture for today states, “But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.” 1 Peter 2:9 I have been chosen by many. However, being chosen by God means the most to me. Because He chose me I will keep pressing and praising Him. This scripture spoke to me because I have definitely been in a VERY dark place. I wasn’t doing what I was supposed to be doing. But He has called me out of darkness into His marvelous light. Again, He CHOSE me. Now that I have testified of my dark places I shined light on it and I can go nowhere but UP from here. It is my pray that if you’re living in darkness and feeling lonely like me tap into why you are lonely. Maybe it was the same reason God had me alone – to learn ME. Just know you may me Lonely, but NOT alone. This is OUR year to REBOUND.